9 times out of 9 if you ask me if I’d rather work 10 hours today or 2 hours for the next 5 days I’d say 10 hours today. That’s probably not unique. Most people like the idea of getting their work done and out of the way so that they can enjoy the rest of their time (because you can’t enjoy life if you’re working of course).
I wish I could say I was contemplating this from an outside perspective or had some wisdom to offer around it, but today I’ve been thinking about the fact that my website has been bugging me for over 6 months to update the theme and now it’s forcing me to update some stuff that is going to change the website.
I put a lot of upfront work into building the website, and as anyone who’s built their website will tell you, you have about a day before you hate your website after it goes live. There are constantly things that you wished were different or ideas that you wish you had implemented.
Unfortunately, for the theme I picked for my website, I had to do a bunch of makeshift workarounds to set it up how I wanted it. All the pages on the front, the way that the page slid down, etc.
Now, coming up on two years since I made it, I don’t even like those front pages (In case you go and look now, they’re gone). They didn’t seem to say what I wanted them to about me and in some ways made me feel like I took myself too seriously. I may write about things occasionally that I want people to take seriously, but that doesn’t mean that I should take myself seriously.
The upfront work on my website was hard, but in a way, sort of fun. I went from not owning a laptop to trying to build my own site in less than three months. I had absolutely no clue what I was doing, and honestly don’t remember half of it anymore (so don’t ask me if I can help on yours, I don’t remember anything).
Now that I’m removed from the excitement of creating and starting it, I’d almost rather pay someone to fix and update the website than deal with it myself. I already post to it each day, I don’t want to have to fix something too. At this point, I just want a place I can throw up my thoughts each day that doesn’t look like a trainwreck.
I often try and write in such a way that I feel my readers could get value out of what I talk about, but every once in awhile you just have to admit your weaknesses and failures so that you can move through the day.
In case you’re wondering, I still haven’t done the update. But if the website goes down sometime this week, you’ll know why.