There’s a feeling many people know well from work or school. A feeling of being behind or like you’re letting something pass by that needs to be done but you don’t know what it is.
It’s a terrible feeling. It brings stress and anxiety and often causes your work performance to go down.
I’ve been experiencing this recently, but now in relation to work, in relation to my friendships. I’ve been traveling for the last three weeks, and it’s been almost impossible to try and keep up communicating with the people I’m not with while I’ve been gone.
Keeping up with people I’m not around is already a difficulty for me, but that difficulty has only compounded while traveling. It’s becoming stressful now. I feel like I am letting friends and family down because of my lack of communication.
It’s not that I don’t “actually” have time. Though for the last week my schedule has been almost completely full, it’s because the act of seeking and pursuing these things takes energy and it’s hard for me to put in the effort when I have things locally that I can be putting effort in on.
I am behind in my communication and even the communication I have had has been succinct and not elaborated. I’m taking the texts as quickly as possible so that I don’t stress myself over more conversation.
I’ve had to realize, just like in work, you can only do your best and you’re going to get behind sometimes. Do your best to communicate. That’s what I’ve been trying and still failing at.
Falling behind happens, but always seek to catch back up.