Optional listening while reading this post:
Sometimes it feels like you need to make all the plans. What’s the five-year goal? What are you going to accomplish by next month?
More than anything, I get bogged down when I get specific in the wrong way with what I’m doing. I think of this music right now (if you’re listening to the playlist).
I could jam to this all day.
Does it have the most beautiful melody? Not really. Does it feel planned and perfect? No.
That’s the beauty of it for me.
It’s musicians coming together to make something that’s not perfect. Playing what feels right. Does it always sound good? No. In fact, a lot of times it sounds a bit off. Things coming in unexpected. A beat you weren’t expecting. A solo you didn’t think fit in very well.
When it’s planned, I like it, but it’s hard for me to enjoy it for a long while. My mind changes. I want to be able to do what’s most important to me at the time. These are the same reasons I’ve never been able to use a task manager.
There are things that are always important that I will always have as my focus, but there are so many smaller things that I prefer to not have planned.
I’ve never been good at reading the music, I’ve always been better at listening and playing along with it. The world is full of both kind of people and needs both.
God has blessed me a ton throughout my whole life and especially recently with what and who he has put into my life and I’m ready to go with the flow. Feel things out a bit. Not sure where the next step is but I’m certain if I keep seeking after God he’ll guide it where it needs to be.
I once wrote a post called Break the Mold. My mindset hasn’t changed. Sometimes you have to break the mold but sometimes you’ve got to swim a little in it to fully shape it. You’ve got to experiment with the mold. You’ve got to look at some other molds to get ideas.
Sometimes to break the mold you have to go with the flow.